Don't Blink..

Sometimes I feel like I wish I could speed time up (like those last 20 minutes of class on Fridays...or the last few seconds of a hockey game when Cory's team is up by a goal). Most of the time, however, I think there are more times I wish that I could slow time down. Like sunday evenings when I'm taking some time to relax and unwind. No matter what we do - time flies (sometimes like a turkey and other times like an eagle).

I guess what I have to keep reminding myself is that I gotta make the most of the time I'm given - even if sometimes if feels like what I'm doing at the time is gonna end up getting me nowhere - you just never can be too sure. I spend a lot of time thinking and reflecting, which I see as a good thing. However, there are times when it would be nice to just forget about everything and really truly relax. Last night, for instance, I'm sure that if all the thoughts that ran through my mind would've been recorded on paper I would have ended up with a complete novel by the time morning came. It was just one of those nights.

Lately alone time has been the most comforting - although others seem to have a hard time grasping how this could be. It's simple really. When I'm by myself I can worry about my own stresses - don't have to worry about inflicting any negative stresses on others. Right now I really have to sort out my own expectations because I am not willing to be hurt and disappointed again as a result of fooling myself into thinking that I'm doing what's right...even though at the time it's hard to see otherwise. Time to get both my feet firmly planted again and then maybe I will thinking about venturing other directions...who knows when that will be.

2 weeks till holidays and I'll try and enjoy the very excited energy that the students bring with them to school!